I'm dreading this everyday feeling lately. Like my relationship is over. I understand that my boyfriend is working a lot now but I'm just dead inside to the idea that he's getting to busy for me. I saw him Monday for the first time in a week. I had an actual phone conversation with him the following night. That's been it recently. He's always tired and drained but he had time to go to a strip club with his coworkers last night and then couldn't call me to tell me he got in safely. I don't ask for much just a decent amount of communication and it's not happening. I talked to him about it yesterday before he got off only for him to tell me later on that night that he was going to a strip club. I don't want to break up with him but honestly I don't want to be in a relationship if I'm the only person trying anymore. Maybe we need a break so he can get his self together. He does have a lot going on right now but he doesn't talk about it. How am I supposed to be a good girlfriend and try to help but he won't communicate with me ? I've been crying all morning and it's killing me. I couldn't sleep last night, I don't have a appetite, and I'm not really up for doing anything today. I just want to chill out. I'm glad I don't have to work today.
I guess I should put myself on the back burner and let him figure some stuff out. I'm not going to ask for communication or time. If he wants to give it I'll be more than grateful to accept but until then I'm just going to suffer in silence because apparently opening my mouth about it isn't changing shit either.
xoxoxo.
