Im Not Exactly Sure

I Think Im Stressed.
Im Not Sure If It Has Anything To Do With Trying To Find A Second Job or Maybe Im Just Always Going To Be Stressed. I Just Feel Lost. My Meds Are Keeping Me Cool For The Most Part. Im Trying To Focus On The Positive But I Feel At A Stand Still Yet Again. I Just Want To Be Happy. My Relationship Is Fine &&. My Home Life Is Good. I Just Dont Feel Special. Like I Dont Matter. I Really Just Want To Disappear For Awhile &&. Come Back Already Successful. Its Not That Easy I Know. But Its Just Getting Ridiculous. My Mind Is Racing &&. Im Not Really Liking It.